Medication - Xanax

If you are lucky, the first type of anti-depressant is the right one. Then it is up to the right dose and you can breathe again... It might take a while but be patient. But I need to warn you: No pill is going to fix it all! You still need to do the work and try to balance it out... Hard to do when you are down... Words are cheap. Do not try to fix a person who is depressed. Give them time and just listen.

I happened to be lucky. It is wise to talk to as many people about this as possible since you can learn from their stories and experiences. The thing is, when you are dealing with depression, you want to be relieved right away and want to escape from your pain and anxiety, actually from yourself because you are someone else... you don't recognize who you are anymore.

When people made compliments about my looks, I thought to myself, man, if you could only see how ugly I feel inside. This sentence is still very upsetting to me because I constantly remember me thinking this way.

What about Xanax?

This medicine is normally given to patients with high anxiety and believe me when I say that it is very popular among high school students who are usually very stressed during exams or even quizzes. I also know people who take this whenever they feel an attack coming up or only when they are super stressed. Some doctors prescribe this without hesitation and don't really care about the outcome.

So when I asked my doctor to prescribe this for me, she was very hesitant to say the least.  Well, she wouldn't want me to take it because it is very addictive! And after a while you need to take more to get the same effects, so after hearing this I was happy she was concerned about my health (as she's supposed to). 

Now that I totally quit taking anti-depressants, (I phased it out in April), I still have Buspirone in case I get a panic attack. But until now, I have not felt the need to take this. I feel very strong mentally and hope to keep it up for quite a while!